Tuesday, October 28, 2008

 

I am very very very very tired. And I am sibeh sibeh sibeh sibeh sian of work. Any living being in my immediate 1 cm radius will be crushed under my fury.

Jus finished a grp meeting, we are meetin again tmr at 9am. Which means I've got less than 8 hrs to finish 3 assignments. oh someone just come and shoot me pls. seriously. 4000 words in 8 hrs is like I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E. Dun give me the bullshit that miracles happen. I stopped believing in them loong ago.

I shud seriously go fuck myself. I'm sleep deprived for 1 whole week, and i still have to smile tmr. great. GREAT. what the hell. I seriously contemplated not handing in my archi essay but the stakes are too high. getting zero for 30% is like failing the module. But then again, I think i'm gonna fail geog a anyway, so wat's failing another one more mod??

HAHAHAH then that way I can just withdraw from honours without regrets!! Totally Cool!

Now I seriously think honours is a mistake from the start. WHY did i get myself into it? I dun even have the capabilities to do such stuff, WHY carry on? Seriously, I find NO reason that I can hang on to. I'll just get killed by expectations anyway. fuck fuck fuck fucking FUCK.


ARGHHH


I guess the only reason I'm still desperately trying to hold on is you. Cos of a promise that I din reject 12 years ago. It's your last, and I'm obliged to do so. But most importantly... I love you(did u know that?).


How I miss you so...... VERY so...